The Party Continues

So I fell asleep before 10:00 on a Friday night.  The 2^nd glass of wine with my “popcorn dinner” may have been a contributing factor.  Don’t judge, it’s my favorite dinner! Air popped.  It beats cooking.  I do cook for myself from time to time but after cooking for 6 people for years and years, I feel like I am getting away with something by serving myself popcorn for dinner.  It’s my little cheat, my guilty pleasure.

Besides the popcorn/wine combo, I was awake until 1:30 am the last night trying to set up this blog.  The idea of the blog suddenly came to me around 9:00.  Yes, after a glass of wine.  I did some research online.  Many sites stated you could have your blog up and running in 10 or 15 minutes.  This one guy said, “You should reserve the next hour.  You won’t need an hour, but if you reserve an hour, you won’t feel rushed.”  I liked what he was saying and as I am a party of 1, I had no other obligations, besides continuing my binging of Gotham.

It seemed a fairly simple process so I slowed my wine drinking down and set to work.  Did I mention I stayed up until 1:30?  I finally had to pull myself away as it was a work night!  It’s not that it was overly complicated but there were lots of decisions to make!  I discovered the following morning that I failed to click the button to make it live.  It’s been a while since I learned something new so I cut myself some slack.

You may be thinking that this party is getting lame, but the point of the party is to make my own decisions, to live for me.  That may sound selfish.  I don’t want you to think I have any regrets having four kids.  I wanted kids, lots of kids.  I felt it was my job as the mom to focus on my kids first.  Now that it is just me, I can come first.  If I wake up at 2:00 am it’s because my own brain wakes me up, not one of my kids needing me.  This is a big transition!  I can now focus on me.

I didn’t ignore myself over the years.  But there is a delicate balance of motherhood and kids take a lot of time and attention.  Even having one kid around, I tended to give my attention to that kid.  Having no one to come home to, no one to cook dinner for, at least on a daily basis is a big change.  Don’t worry I am not lonely.  I do still have 4 kids!  And I have a partner in crime to share time with. But I am really enjoying this alone time, spending time getting to know me.   Thanks for stopping by the party and getting to know me too!

So I fell asleep before 10:00 on a Friday night.  The 2nd glass of wine with my “popcorn dinner” may have been a contributing factor.  Don’t judge, it’s my favorite dinner! Air popped.  It beats cooking.  I do cook for myself from time to time but after cooking for 6 people for years and years,…

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